8.

wow. you say you miss me, and when i look at your comments to other girls, you're completely selling yourself like a prostitute. like, i really don't know what you're thinking.
i miss you alot too, but when you get like that, it's just annoying.

anyways, spending time with my family made me rethink alot of things. in the perks of being a wallflower, charlie said, "i am very interested and fascinated by how everyone loves each other, but no one really likes each other. " and this was about his family.
and i was thinking about how true it was. because me and my two older cousins differ so much from each other, but there's, like, an unspoken bond between us. my cousin wrote to me in a card "if any tight pants boy messes around with kathy, we will both gladly and easily beat him up."

and up until the moment i read that, i never really realized how much i love my family.
and i wish that there were these kinds of connections with everybody i know.
why do people have to hate each other?
we should accept differences and support each other, no matter what.
like a family.

7.

The finish line
is just around the bend
I'll pause this game
so our love will never end
Let's go again

mkay, what the fuck. why do you have to be such a...you?
you are so sweet to me,
even though we broke up three weeks ago.

i guess i still love you.
but i have feelings for someone else, too.
i moved on because i thought you did.
so, sorry to let you down.

but i hope i can be your friend forever.

6.

Lol @ the rage in my last post.
I am proud to say that I am over it, and more importantly, i'm over him.
About time, right? :D

Well, everything's okay now. No more emotional spasms for a loong time.

._. NOW I'M BRAINDED.
I update later. Byebyebyebye.

5.

I'M BOTTLING UP MY EMOTIONS AGAIN AND I FEEL LIKE IF I DON'T SAY SOMETHING I'LL EXPLODE.
I've been feeling like this for the past 5 days and i'm not sure if i can take it anymore.

I hate this. I hate not being with you. No, I hate not having someone to spill every ounce of my being into anymore. I feel empty. I need you, but I don't want you back, because it can't be the same.

I JUST FUCKING WISH THAT YOU WOULD STOP TELLING ME THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING AND THAT YOU'LL ALWAYS LOVE ME. I can't take that kind of shit. If you really mean it, DON'T FUCKING LEAVE ME. It's that simple. You can't just say that to me and then flirt with other girls. This is why I fucking hate myspace now. You can't do this to me.

I just wish you would stop telling me all those things so that I can let go of you. But it's fucking impossible. I wish you would stop being kind to me so I can be mad at you for leaving me.

I want you to say what you mean. Please don't preach to me your bullshit about how you'll always love me so that I don't get hurt when I see you flirting with hoes on myspace.

DUMB DUMB DUMB. I WISH I WAS OVER YOU.

4.

I AM SO FUCKING GOOD AT PROCRASTINATING.

3b.

god, what the hell is your problem?
i continually tell you that it seriously pisses me off when you talk to her. i've asked you to stop countless times, but you always say it's no big deal. then i have to go ahead and fucking find out on my own that you talk to her on the phone? what the fuck? -_- GOD. it seems that you just can't fucking stay away from her. and then you consider asking her to drive all the way to LA just so you can have a date to your fucking dance? what the hell is your problem.

HAHA, and now you're mad because i think you're cheating on me. what else am i supposed to think?
dude, whatever. just tell me if you don't need me.

3.

today's gonna be a sleepy day. i can feel it. although i'll be working on my love's birthday card for pretty much the remainder of the day! yaaay, i have so many ideas for it.

yesterday was outrageous. montgomery mall was extremely crowded. i went to the mall with mb, cody, mark and daniel. not half bad. i got pants, a new bag (panic!<3), and some shirts; basically all i wanted and needed to get. so yesterday was extremely successful. mb got a new ipod touch! it's amazingly beautiful.

not really up to blogging right now. i'm gonna draw a birthday card now! :D

2.

myspace whores piss me off.
you changed alot since the last time i talked to you. you're a complete poser and myspace no-lifer and i have no idea what i saw in you to start with. not that i still have feelings for you, but now i can see you're just as stupid as ever.

ignorant, ignorant, ignorant.
i hate that damn word. ignorance is bliss?
open up your eyes a little bit, at least, brat.

onwards now.
today was tiring. kinda. video production was the same, russian was uneventful, and i had random discussions with my little brother (HAH) in DPC. in world we did a lame ass fucking DBQ which i'm going to fail to the maximum because i'm procrastinating from doing it right now by telling you about my day. lunch was okay; it's so funny whenever we run into "spencer". although i wish i ran into look-alike bro more often than i usually do. :( oh well. then i almost fell asleep in english, had a stat quiz, and crashed in bio.

normal day, i'd say.

relationship status as of now is neutral. we have random honeymoon periods and random oh-my-god-let's-just-break-up-now moments. i know it's retarded.
but i love him, very much. i will go through thick and thin to make him happy but i'd do anything for him to just shut up when i do supposedly "bad" things, which i think -in my opinion- is not bad at all. it's hard doing all this, but i need him. he's the shine to my sun, the night to my day, the...blahblah insert cheesy metaphor here.

emily jus ttexted me saying thpenther wrote on her wall! he is so entertaining. his facial expressions are silly and it's amazing how we see him everywhere. if i could, i'd make a thpenther fan club. i wish he was our best friend. :)

mkay, i have to treat my so-called "smokers cough" right now. although i'm not so sure what to do about it.

<3

1.

i'm going to try and keep this blog as real as possible.

hi, i'm kat. i'm turning 16 in 4 hours and 3 minutes, from looking at the time right now.
i'm becoming more and more ignorant, and i hate it.
i'm in a bipolar long distance relationship, and it kills me, but i need him so much that i'd go through fucking hell and back just to stay with him.
alot of things have been annoying me lately, and my anger problems are returning.

to sum it up,
hi, i'm kat, and i'm selfish. fucking human emotions.