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hey, fuck college. i'm just trying to get through the day.

i thought that would be a cool opening.
hi blogger! i miss you.

but what i said is some truefax. i hate thinking about what i'm going to do in the future. it scares me. and the best part is that im very indecisive. so if i follow one thing i could be fucking my whole life. great, isn't it. i just want to live how i want and be at peace with that. i'm not sure if i even want to do that whole mission of changing the world. if everything worked how you wanted it to, what would you have to live for? living and dying for a cause is overrated and outrageous.
but even though i said all that, i still want to leave a mark on the world. or, at least, in someone's heart.
human kind is crazy, right?

and today, i realized that these are my glory days. the days i spend with all my friends and the things i do will probably be the best moments of my life. i realized that after school and all of this ends, what do you have to live for? a job. money. kids. those things are important, but i want more than that. this is completely selfish, but i want to own the world. i want to experience everything and show off to other people the things i've done. not to piss them off. or to boast. but to inspire them to do something with their life. and inspire them to do things never thought of. and in that way, leave my mark on the world.

and i realized that the best way to die would be in outerspace. right?
you should live looking at the stars, and die among them.