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did i grow up in the past 2 weeks or something? looking at that blog below and the ones after the one with kim bum, it's like i'm two different people.
either way, i sound like an obnoxious dickhead in all of them. but i'm really not, i promise.
i guess this is what it means to move on...? good fun.


last night i stayed up listening to (semi) old songs by cartel, a change of pace, and anberlin. and i thought about the days that i would listen to these songs nonstop and just think about things...and certain people in particular.
i miss that feeling, you know? having a crush on someone and feeling infinite regardless if you were happy, sad or mad about something that happened with them. thinking back to those times makes me so happy. he really did make my freshman year.

it's strange though. when i think of someone i had a crush on, it makes me smile.
but it only makes me sad to think about someone that i've loved. and maybe still love. even though he has a girlfriend now. i guess feelings like that change but also stay the same.

now i realize that falling in and out of love with someone is some scary business. because once you have that first feeling and it disappears, you can never really feel the same about anyone else again.


did you enjoy me being all psychological? i seem so cool when i get like this.